Today was a hectic day. First thing in the morning, I was met with the dreaded CFRA quiz. I stayed up late preparing for the quiz and was sleepy the whole time. I was ill-prepared for the paper and was upset after messing up the paper. After posting the paper, I was upset and hungry. I only had 30 minutes to get breakfast, get my laptop, and return to classes. The breakfast today was Aloo sabzi and Poori, my least favourite of the breakfasts. I had Poha and returned to the room to collect my laptop for the Stats Class. During the stats class, I browsed news on my phone and didn't listen to anything the professor said. After the Stats class was the MicroEconomics class, even though I sometimes liked attending that class, I was very sleepy and fell asleep for 15 minutes. I don't like to sleep in class, not because I want to listen to the professor, but because I might end up snoring. Anyway, then came lunchtime, nothing good was in the lunch. I just ate whatever and went to sleep, skipping the Managerial Communication class. I slept like a baby and was woken up by a call from Vatsan. He asked me what I would wear to the Entrepreneur summit later today. In my sleep, I misheard "Wear" as "Where". That led to a funny conversation. Then I went back to sleep and woke up around 5:30 PM. This was not the time I wanted to wake up, as it meant I had missed the Entrepreneur summit. I went for the snacks with Sarvesh, and was greeted by the "Great Mumbai Vadapav". We had some fun discussing about Mumbai snacks. I went for the CV Review, where Purnima helped me a lot. She is very kind and is always willing to help. She gave me advice about my CV and the Summer Internship prep.
After the review, I went to the IR Party at 11 PM. This party was meant to celebrate the academic achievers, but was just an excuse for a Joka Party. The party was fun for people who drank, but to me, it was bland. I didn't like it too much, which made me realize that I am not a party person.
I sometimes enjoy such parties or at least pretend to, but today I was not in the mood to even pretend to like it. I was done with the whole party thing and just stood there, mostly scanning the surroundings, watching people do stupid things with a happy face. The smartest of people, doing the silliest of things. The experience confirmed that I was more of an introvert than an extrovert. During the party, I realized that I wanted to have a girlfriend deep down. This is something that I had been thinking about for a while, but it is an experience that I am currently missing out on and is something that I would love to try. But again, going back to square one, I was socially anxious and didn't know the correct way of asking someone out. I returned early from the party, in about 2 hours and started exploring YouTube channels about consulting preparation.
One such channel - " Aaditya Agarwal " led me to an existential question : "Why MBA?" . The question I had prepared for during my interview no longer had the same answer. This is my last chance of doing everything I missed out on, the last opportunity to undo that one regret. But the problem is that it is a long list and I don't know which of these I should do. The list goes something like this :
Give it my all
Show that I can change
Make new friends
Build Confidence
Have Fun
Have New Experiences
Become Outgoing
Have NO REGRETS
I don't know how many I can fulfil, but I will ensure I complete at least the last one.
Good Night,
M.P.
Date - 17 Aug 2025, 04:40 AM
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